Time is My Worst Enemy

I've said it before, and I'll say it again - time is my absolute enemy.

The gloom of winter is slowly creeping in, and I'm back on that phase of my life where I feel like I've accomplished so little and time is ticking on and on and on. I think that a big part of that is that I'm not getting any younger, yet I feel like there's still so much more out there that I would like to do and experience.

I just feel like I'm running out of time with so much more left to do.

It's a constant dilemma that I'm eternally battling. I don't want to make excuses, and for the most part I blame myself for being lazy - but one thing I learned about myself is that I exhibit a lot of traits that I may be in the spectrum. I probably should seek professional help, but my ego begs to disagree that I am different. I do, somehow, admit I may have ADHD, maybe even autism, but I also decline being part of the "trend" where everyone claims to have some sort of diagnosis.

I know, I tend to be extremely hard on myself.

That being said, today is somewhat productive than most weekends. Doing the laundry, did a few parts of my coloring book, and now I'll attempt to relax and crochet. Nothing much, failed to go ride in the cold - which I was actually looking forward to but could not get myself to do. I'm looking forward to the next two weeks - a few things planned and I took some days off. Probably would be able to do more chores.

Hey on the bright side, I'm caught up with putting away dishes! Yay?

Thoughts... thoughts...

Tomorrow I return to work. Not truly enthusiastic about it. I love what I do, but the stress is overwhelming to say the least. I think I've given myself enough time to ease into the role, but as always, there is a new challenge that lies ahead.

I really want to have more time in the day to do things that I enjoy. Isn't it everyone's struggle?

Well then, off I go and make myself some iced coffee. Bear made our own creamer, it's absolutely delightful - now let me indulge and enjoy my Sunday.