Updates is Not What I'm Good At

I think we have established this a long time ago; however, I'm not feeling so good about things recently. This really makes it a lot harder to do anything, let alone update anything or anyone for that matter.

 First of all, I really miss the sun and riding - being out and about. Regrettably, we've had some unfortunate circumstances that will make traveling and enjoying normal life a bit harder. In simpler terms, we're in a financial pickle making us borderline broke. Financial issues aside, my mental health is really getting drained. Both Bear and I are going through tough times and stress is really taking its toll on both us. I'm just grateful that we have each other to wade through this current situation.

I know I have to tough it out, and I'm really doing my best. It's just a bit sad because I do not have the energy to get things done. I know a lot of people would say, don't be lazy, just suck it up and get moving - I wish it was easier to explain what it's like when you're hit with task paralysis. It's not an excuse, and I absolutely hate it. I really do. I mustered up so much power to get myself in my craft room and start typing this entry.

I've had laundry sitting there for three weeks, and I've just managed to fold half that needed folding. I have to iron the remaining half and I really have to do it tomorrow or it will never get done. I let my fish tank get really filthy, and it was a lot of work it clean it up but needless to say, it is now pristine. I waste away sleeping and doom scrolling and the only upside is when we go out to eat and have a little good time.

Sometimes, I sit back and wonder what some of the people who travel a lot do to maintain that lifestyle. I wish I knew about bitcoin back then and invested $100, I'd be filthy rich now. Oh the regrets, but I was also 20 years old and never, in a million years, would I have put $100 on that... unless of course, I knew.

I look outside, the sun has set already - it's another Sunday and tomorrow is the start of a very quick week that will age me another 5 years as I go through it. Enough with the whining, I'll think of something more positive to update. But this is the update for now. 

​I know things will get better.