There is chaos that hides behind the rainbow.
I always do my best to look at the bright side of things and see the positive results amid whatever is seemingly going wrong. Some people might think I'm extra #YouGotThis #Positivity and all that - but there's definitely a reason. Today, I choose to share a little bit more on what's behind my positivity rainbow.
I decided to paint something today. While abstract is my favorite style of paintings, I rarely do it myself. Typically I use watercolor and paint nature. I decided to play some modern violin music and got my new easel ready for use. Today I painted this piece I call, "The Storm in my Head".
For some reason, it felt surreal painting this and I wasn't really sure why. I'm not really tired, I wasn't upset and I have no reason to be. Yet, I was overwhelmingly sad while I painted this.
Truth be told, my sadness never goes away - which is why I do my best to be positive. I don't like being sad, I don't like feeling down, and I don't like getting tangled up in that strings of darkness that cloud my mood, my judgment, my everything. I choose to be happy and the only way I can do it is to see the good in things and realize the better aspects of life.
Some people would say that I put up a façade, and some people would say that I'm being too far off from reality. I disagree. I don't deny any feelings I have and I'm not covering up anything. I acknowledge any sadness that I have, but I also choose to fight it. It's difficult, and like I said - it never goes away. The chaos in me remains.
However, I want life to be worthwhile. I love my family and I want to enjoy every moment I have with them. Yes, I choose to fight the storm in my head.
Hey, it's me!
I've always loved to write. Not saying I'm good at it, but hey this is the story of my life!
Things I Love
Photography. Puppies. Arts. Crafts. Cooking. Animals. Makeup. Beaches. Pink things.