Monday started like a typical Monday - was very hard to get out of bed, the gloomy skies and intermittent rain made it much more favorable to close my eyes and just doze off again. My Mondays are typically mundane, unless I have something urgent or complicated going on at work - I did my usual checking of cases, emails, preparing for my first meeting, then onto the next.
One of the managers, who is usually very composed, requested for assistance for his team. I felt the panic in his voice, not sure if that's what it was, but that's how I perceived it. He then said that he didn't know if we knew yet, but one of our colleagues was missing since Sunday morning.
We were all in shock, but we hoped for the best. I hoped for the best.
I've never really thought of myself as an overthinker. While I tend to stick to personal routines to do things a certain way or in a certain order, I think I'm spontaneous to an extent. Well, I haven't been overthinking until lately. I know that a big part of that is from the stress of adulting, but the rest of my restlessness is quite unfounded.
My art is my escape. My paintings, my photography, and even doing my makeup is a some form of relief. I sat there, trying to paint, still in love with the beauty of fall - even if the colors haven't even turned yet despite being already halfway through October. But my mind was just lost in a hazy, random thought.
Life's been pretty stressful lately. While I don't really talk about it or even show the extent of my (financial idiocy and) miseries, it is happening in the background more often than I care to admit. I've probably mentioned my struggles a few times before, and I really don't like doing that - but I'm pretty transparent, so I guess there's that.
That being said, tough times sometimes bring out the best in people. It definitely brings out the best out of my husband for sure. I never really want to burden Bear with anything. I think a part of that is the thought that I'm older - so I should be more responsible in handling things. Yet here he is, bailing me out of every stupid decision I've made. I've really been down lately, and I honestly feel ashamed because I've let my husband down too. The fact that he's very supportive and caring the whole time is priceless, I really appreciate it that he's by my side no matter what.
We got home last night from a family dinner, and Bear prepared my foot massage and soak! I really couldn't be anymore grateful!
I need more time just like this... just to contemplate
I woke up pretty early today. Well, too early if you ask me. Bear sat next to me before he had to leave for work and we cuddled, but of course Ein had to come up and pounce me nonstop because he had to go out. Afraid of poopie accidents, the cuddles were cut short and I took him out at 5 a.m. on a Saturday and I haven't fallen asleep since. And if you were curious, no Ein spent his time running around chasing Hans, sprinkled his business and no poop, and well, ran around and chased some leaves.
I've had my early lunch, cleaned the kitchen and the back hallway (partially). I think I'm done for the day and I'm ready for a nap. I easily get drained on weekends, and thinking about the upcoming trip I have on Monday just makes me more anxious and tired in advance.
Fall just arrived, but it feels like winter is already just around the corner. The chilly, crisp air is something I really love, but today's gloom seems to just bring me unjustifiable sadness. It's just so gloomy, which is odd - typically I feel comfort during this weather. Maybe I haven't had enough of summer just yet.
But hey, let's make the most out of it! Because the arrival of fall and winter means new opportunities to take photos. And also more time to craft because we won't be doing activities as much. So what things should I prepare for this season?
I'm sure that a lot of us have this struggle! It's 12:04 a.m. as I start typing - I should be in bed, I have a lot of work to do, but here I am pondering on random thoughts and finally blogging. Lot of things to catch up on. I recent got my hands on some new art materials and have already painted a few pieces, which I am very happy with. I want to post them now but my brain says, no - you have to wait and post about the art and the paints...
We know how that goes, I procrastinate and that never happens. So many thoughts, so litter time! Anyways, here's a vain selfie for photo tax.
When I first got my motorcycle license, I was riding a Kawasaki Z125. It was a small, cute, mini version of a sports bike and it was fun to ride around. The only issue I've really had is my lack of confidence in shifting - the clutch work and the timing - is just really overwhelming for me. Needless to say, this resulted to the not-so-great crash of 2020.
I really didn't want to ride anymore. I was content being a passenger, but we thought why not give it another shot? I really didn't want to deal with the clutch work and panic once more - so in fall of 2021, I got a 2022 Honda ADV150.
We definitely couldn't wait to get over the cold weather so when the first signs of warmth knocked on Wisconsin's door steps, we grabbed the chance! Each year, I take a week off for Bear's birthday, and my birthday. Most of the time we plan on doing something for Bear's birthday week(end), and for my week I usually just use it to chill, relax, and craft.
Last month, for Bear's birthday we decided to camp at Governor Dodge State Park. I recently added on my bucket list to, hopefully, get to visit all state parks in Wisconsin. I really enjoy camping, and it feels good to just be away from the city and experience nature.
it's another wonderful day! It's sunny out and I'm here crafting to forget about the Earth's stressors. I wish everyday was a beautiful Sunday (or Saturday).
On rare occasions, Gypie, our senior cat comes to join in a wishful attempt to go outside. Unfortunately, she's never been really outside (we took her in at 17 years old, she's now turning 20) so I don't think it's much of a good idea to let her try this late in her life.
It's not that bad. Just challenging... and expensive.
A lot of kids can't wait to grow up because it seems so simple that adults can do whatever they want and there are just no rules to follow. As an adult, and you probably are too, you would know that's a lie. Adulting is quite the struggle - there's actually a lot of rules that apply (e.g. laws) of what you can and cannot do, and what you should do or else you get in trouble, like filing your taxes.
I personally enjoy my adulthood. There's a lot of challenges, but I know we'll get through it so I never really think of it as an issue. I mean, they are, but I try not to let it bring me down. I know people handle problems different and I typically prefer not to tell people who aren't involved. Probably another reason why some folks would think I have the perfect life, and some people assume that I'm rich and swimming in thousands of dollars if not more - because life is good.
Now here's the truth.
Hey, it's me!
I've always loved to write. Not saying I'm good at it, but hey this is the story of my life!
Things I Love
Photography. Puppies. Arts. Crafts. Cooking. Animals. Makeup. Beaches. Pink things.